"I'm sorry to be the one to tell you, but this looks like cancer". From the time I heard those words come out of Dr. Sherman's mouth on May 4th, 2012, my focus and goal was to find an alternative natural treatment to chemo.
I wanted a naturalist who could either help me find a natural alternative to chemo or if I chose to do chemo could help give me information to restore my body during the treatment process. I knew that there is a wealth of information on the internet and plenty of books written on the subject that I could read but the problem I had was: information overload! Especially when I was recovering from a major surgery and was already mentally and emotionally drained. I kept coming up on dead ends. I could not find the right person or book or idea that I believed in. I was extremely frustrated.
Just a couple days after I had a phone conversation with a breast cancer survivor who had told me to look into acupuncture, I received a Living Social email that had a great deal for a local Acupuncturist. Before I bought the Living Social deal I called to get some information. I asked if she had previously worked with chemo patients and explained my situation and asked her how she could help me. I asked her what she would do and how exactly it would help my body. I then explained my financial situation.
She was so kind and took the time to explain how acupuncture works and how it would help my body during chemo. She then told me that she was more interested in helping me through this process than she was worried about how I would pay for it and that we could work something out.
One week to the day after my first chemo appointment I entered Amy Oros' beautiful yellow office that had a wooden desk and antique chair, some pretty pictures on the cheery walls; I met her smiling face and I immediately knew I found the right place to start my journey to restore my body. The treatment room was painted two shades of relaxing green with another antique looking wooden table that held a mini waterfall. The walls had relaxing water pictures and the music was a soothing piano medley.
Amy asked me some questions about my treatment, about the concerns I had about chemo and what exactly I desired to obtain from acupuncture and neural therapy. I answered those questions but then found myself dumping and unloading the past several months worth of worry and stress on her. I began to cry and share all my fears about what I felt chemo was doing to my body. I was a wreck! Amy was so kind and comforting. She listened and asked questions and I felt that she truly did care. She gave me some great advice that I have keep coming back to during my treatment process. She helped me change the way I view the treatments and she also helped me realized that changing the words that I call things will help change my mental state. So I no longer us the word "chemo" I call it "treatment". I try to not say "cancer" instead I use the Chinese word "phlem". I no longer view treatments as "harming and destroying "my body, killing both the good and the bad but instead as medicine that will kill the bad and help me live a long healthy life. She used a vivid analogy "Imagine the medicine (chemo/treatment) as the national guard going into your body. It is there to defend and protect the good and to kill the bad". Visualizing the treatment in my body killing the bad and protecting the good has really helped changed my mental and emotional perspective of this process.
My weekly acupuncture sessions are the highlight of my week! I look forward to my sessions not just receiving the acupuncture but talking to Amy and sharing my emotions as well. I feel safe to share with Amy my deepest concerns and anxieties (which I is why I joke that she is my personal therapists!). Sometimes it's important to let out those thoughts, frustrations, fears and anxieties in a safe place.
The time I lay "setting" with the needles poked in me is my alone and quiet time. The lights are dimmed low, the sound of the waterfall and the music playing soothes and relaxes every muscle in my body. I use that time of peace and serenity to reflect, pray and give thanks. I pour my heart out to the Lord asking him for healing of my body, protection for my children, for comfort and peace for my family. I thank him for the many blessings he has given to us during this trial. When I stop to think and reflect on the blessings I am brought to tears...God has been so good to us!
Not only does acupuncture relieve the physical side effects of my treatment (achy body, headaches, the tin taste in my mouth, mouth sores, constipation, etc) it is also a time a peace an tranquility for my heart and soul.
